we move through this as if through water
slowly
i know that i am completely dry yet i am aware that I am also drowning
curious.
like i'm moving through water
using so much energy to make the smallest of movements
you know how your muscles work when you are moving through the water
the waves
working against you
pure pressure against my body
from all sides
a wall of force
it pulls me under
backwards
there is salt water in my eyes
it mixes with the tears
stinging my eyes
i know that eyelashes are supposed to protect your eyes from getting shit in them but
sweet little eyelashes are made for dust
they are no match for the ocean
i am no match for the ocean
i cannot seem to breathe
i gasp for air
some sweet release from all that I feel
unknown creatures move past my legs
i cannot see them
my fear is only heightened
i blink back tears
did you know that there is a third option to flight or fight?
it is actually fight, flight, or freeze
and in this moment my body freezes
there is no fighting to be done
there is nowhere to flight to
the water is too strong so i surrender
i drown in my emotions
I feel them so strongly
the water is heavy
AMV
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